Tuesday, April 17, 2007

My first rant on C&Y?

Yoga tonight.

I so need it.

It's been a rough couple of mornings with the flooding. It has brought out the beast in me.

I wish I can get to the point where I don't need yoga to feel peace and calm. I am a very hot-headed person, and a lot of things bother me and get to me. While I'm big on the yoga and the zen and the buddha and the blah blah blah, I am very far from the "stereotype" of a person who is into those things. And even that pisses me off. When does yoga equal never losing your temper? Don't you do yoga? What about all those books you read? Drives me insane! It makes me want to scratch someone.

I can't explain the way my mind works. I try to observe my thoughts and I try not to cling to them but sometimes it does happen. Give me a break will ya?


Natalie said...

I get it. I have tattooed knuckles and am full of irrational bad attitude and nasty things to say about everything but when I do pilates or go on a long bike ride I'm at peace. Maybe the physical expression of whatever lurks inside is cliched, but as long as it keeps me from making a people-skin suit to howl at the moon in, complete with a nipple belt and everything, it's good.

Mary said...

I get it too. I am definitely far from the stereotype as well. I'm a rock chick at heart and I am known to just say "f-off" to the world when I really don't want to work it out.

I reckon yoga's all about finding your balance and it's healthy to be able to express all your emotions. Through yoga, meditation etc. we just learn how to deal with them better so the nasty ones don't last as long.

A quote that keeps me real and okay about not being a "perfect yogi" is by Donna Farhi.

"I am always a bit suspicious of people who walk around spouting angelic proclamations about how wonderful and beautiful and full of light everything is. When I meet people like this I have an overwhelming desire to go out and buy a handgun."
Donna Farhi, Bringing Yoga to Life

I hope this helps! It always gives me a good belly laugh :-)

Cupcakes & Yoga said...

That is such a great quote Mary! Thanks!!

Nadine Fawell said...

Yeah, I am with you girls - nobody is nice all the time - not even saints. It just ain't human.

Regina Clare Jane said...

I'll never forget the time I lost it on my sister right after daddy died- and then my brother chimed it, "Aren't you supposed to be some kind of yogi or something?" he made me feel about two feet tall...
I try to live on my mat and off it, too, but it rarely works out that way. I don't even know if living on a mountain top would solve the problem either- I am just too human.
This was a great post, Marilyn, and I really needed to read this, considering what has been going on for me lately...